yukinoomoni: (Morgan)
I just wanted to post a quick update for everyone to let you know that despite a great deal of trying, my loved ones and myself managed to avoid any major damage from the really pretty but equally terrifying ice storm. There are a ton of broken trees and a few busted cars, but only my second oldest sister has lost power, and she's living in the epicertre of the damage.

So, I'm okay. Please post here to tell me that you are all okay, too!
yukinoomoni: (Default)
Thanks to my Mom, I'm posting this entry using my new (her old) smart phone. I want to briefly address my last entry, as well as brief you on my decisions about my online footprint.

I've actually become stupidly active on Twitter, although I refuse to engage in anything fandom related save the few random things. I'm not caught up on Korra - in fact, I've only seen the premiere and a few trailers. Please, don't say too much to me. Though I know spoilers are inevitable, I'm trying to avoid them, mostly so as not to get caught up in annoying speculations, but also because I think I would want to watch it in one or two sittings. The waiting is the worst, is it not?

Like I said, I will barely be here on DW and definately not on LJ. Now that mu DW is fixed, my only contribution to LJ is the reposting from DW. Sorry, but the Russian anti-gay stuff pisses me off, and I do not doubt that eventually LJ will become one giant censor bar shaped like Fred the Goat.

If you want more daily contact with me, you can bug me on Twitter @yukinoomoni . I am on there all the time. Bug me. Do it.

So I guess while I still am rather more disconnected than ever, you can still find me somehow.

Or something, I dunno.


Sep. 24th, 2013 05:37 pm
yukinoomoni: Rage enrages me. (NOOOOOO)
I am in a hideous mood, and DreamWidth insisting that I do not exist is only making it worse, so once again I am only posting here and not there, and will back the entries up when I find a way.

Honestly, I'm starting to hate the internet. I hate what it does to people. I hate the power it gives over others. I hate that there is absolutely nothing sacred, safe, or private about it (hence why I won't even bother locking this post).

I am grateful for the wonderful friends I have met through the internet, but am also very damaged by those whom I shouldn't have trusted. I love that I am usually able to find wonderful people to talk to about things I love and thought I was the only one who loved them, but I also loathe fandom's horrid ability to suck the fun and magic out of everything I adore.

The internet has allowed me to post writings that would have probably remained in duotangs stuck in my closet, and these writings have brought me closer to more people. It has also alienated me from people, as of course only weirdos write fanfic, right? So I can't even brag about it to "normal" people, despite being extremely proud of that which I wrote.

If anything, my lukewarm success with fanfic has given me hubris as to just how good or bad my writing actually is. I soar high one moment, then get shot down the next. And any time I think about writing the stories that are deep in my heart, I cringe and cringe, because of course it's bad, cliched, overdone, and seen before. EVERYTHING has been seen before, in this highly published society. Anything I write, however good or bad, would be lost in the pool of those who already beat me to it. So why bother?

And the death of Kristen was like the last straw. I had no idea how much I had missed her and wished I was a better friend to her until she died, and I never even met her. All of you, whom I love so much, could flicker just like her, and then what? It's selfish, but I hate having my heart broken.

I barely have friends. I can count the number of friends I have outside of the internet on one hand (without even bothering with my thumb), so really my only social net is full of you - people who have thought me interesting enough to read my words on a screen. I trust you all with more than I trust my family, and I haven't met you. And yet those few friends I know I can barely trust.

How did my life get so backward? Am I the only one?

I'm not really going away off the internet. I just... I obviously am on it so rarely that nobody really would note a difference. I've given up being a "presence" on the internet. Why bother? That is everyone.

So I guess what I'm trying to say is... don't expect much of anything from me anymore. I'm just... probably to vanish quietly, if that's what I decide to do.

Comments are disabled because I know I won't see the comments until too late for replying anyway. If you really need to get in touch, I usually check Twitter more often than not, because I use it to post nonsense. But then, even that will probably die out, too.

(Funnily enough, as I was typing this, I got blocked out of DW AGAIN. This is after a week of changing my password FOUR TIMES and being locked out. FUCK YOU.)

Oh yeah

Sep. 17th, 2013 02:41 pm
yukinoomoni: (Eh?)
I posted these on Twitter, but in case you haven't seen them, THIS IS MY FACE NOW. AND HAIR.



(Sorry - HTML isn't working for me on LJ for some reason.)
yukinoomoni: (Love)
Hey everyone. Sorry for the silence again! I actually was working on the aforementioned project, as well as flying all over the GTA for doctors (not literally, but I was tired enough to make it seem like it after). I'm still working on the project - especially since I overestimated my own readership and popularity and was unable to get enough responses in order to get a good sample. It's nobody's fault but mine =3.

So the project will go on with what I have, but at half of the original plan: 5 instead of 10.

Additionally, my vanishing was accidental as well as incidental. Things didn't seem aligned for me over this time gone, so, yeah. Not going into details.

But, who cares?! Today is September 17th! Eleven years have come and gone, and that guy, what's his name, Terry or something, is still around. What's his deal? One would think we're in love or something. Still. And grossly. Still.

Bah! This post sucks. Sorry.

-I saw Nostalgia Critic's review of The Last Airbender. It was perfect. Mostly. But well worth a watch or five.
-Terry and I saw the second season of Korra begin on the weekend. Many squees and intrigue! No spoilers, here, tho!
-I will be writing fanfic VERY SOON, in THREE fandoms: ATLA, ATLOK, and Shadow Raiders (!).

Also, who keeps recommending my old fanfics? Seriously. They all lack sense now - especially since Aang dies at a different age (52) than previously thought (68). Aaaaargh!

Also, please forgive me for not checking on my friends list any further than a few days. Please let me know if I have missed something.

Okay. Post over.... Now.
yukinoomoni: (Grin)
Hello everyone!

Over the next couple of days, I will be posting several polls and questions in order to research some stuff for a project I'm working on. Once the questions progress, it will be obvious what my project is, but for now try to answer as honestly as possible, not in the way you think I want you to answer. The polls and the comments will be given an anonymous option, in case you want that.

So, on to the first round! And here is the topic:


In the comments below, please list, in order of favourite (the first being the best and the last being the least favourite), the first ten fairy tales that you find your favourites. There is no cultural boundaries, country or continental boundaries. All I ask is, if the tale did not originate in English and I have not heard of it, please provide a link.

It also doesn't matter how obscure or popular the tale is - YOU JUST HAVE TO LIKE IT. If you cannot think of ten, then round it down to five. Any less than five, I can't use.

Details of this project I wish to keep semi-secret for now. A few already know what this is, but for the sake of objective results, keep it shushed!

So, no polls this round. Just lists, in the comments, of (preferably) ten, but five is also... acceptable.

I plan on keeping this venue open for a week, so take your time thinking it all out and commenting. It's really important!
yukinoomoni: (Lucina Unmasked)

It's been quite a long time, hasn't it? How are you all? What's new? What have I missed? I hope nothing bad.

Read more... )

So, to sum up, I really am still here and around. Just not online. And it was due to fear and loss and both. And I will strive to come online once a week, if just to update my writing (which has been really awesome).

Also, I humble request detailed comments about your own goings-on since I was online last. Even a sentence is okay. I just want to make sure you are all okay, and I think it would take WAY too long to try to read that far back (if I can).

A detailed post following this one will be locked, as it goes into details about personal stuff. So if I have not provided an acceptable explanation, you can probably figure it out from it (maybe). If you are reading this as a public post but would like to know more, just comment here and I will explain as much as I feel comfortable doing so in public. Otherwise, PM me.

Once again, sorry.

And, hello.


Jun. 5th, 2013 10:07 am
yukinoomoni: (Default)
I just found out that a friend I have known for almost 15 years was killed in an ATV accident. She was one of my closest friends when I haunted the AnimeForum chatrooms. I always called her Kren, from a typo of her name once, which was Kristen. Now... Apparently she is already mourned and buried. Her last LJ entry mentioned me. Just me.

I am crying harder than I thought I even would. She and I truthfully haven't had a real good conversation in years. But the last time she communicated on LJ was for... ME.

So even though she passed away on May 24th, it feels like it just happened today...

If anyone else is unsure, her LJ handle was uprise.livejournal.com 
yukinoomoni: (Love)
One of the fun things about being at Terry's house on some days is that I get to watch him clean.

Now, he lives alone, technically (I only live here on the weekends), thus he lives the life of a single guy, more or less. How would you picture a single guy's abode?

Full of wrappers, dirty dishes, laundry piled up, everything smelling weird, and so on.


That shit only happens when I come over. I am the single man in this household.

Terry cleans after me like Ryuuji does for Taiga: with no second thoughts and almost an unconscious way of doing so, in a way that doesn't make me feel bad. So when I see him like today, cleaning his place from head to toe, on knees and feet, scrubbing and sweeping and stuff, I dunno...

All I can see is Ryuuji!

So I call him that with legitimacy, and that is how it goes. And so it shall go until he stops being that way.

(He just read this entry and laughed at me, then accused me of thinking it as "cleaning porn". There is no masturbation here! I am just full of admiration for someone who can clean so much all at once and not get upset over it, especially when the mess is mine!)

...he just lit a candle under the sink, because the garbage smells?

yukinoomoni: (Lucina Smiles)
Now I have not only two FE:A icons, but I made them! They're from the Japanese artbook, the very same one that Terry gave me for my birthday. I didn't scan them, but I made the icons. I won't say her name, but I love her!
yukinoomoni: (Me)
Nim and I spent about a half-hour sitting outside. It's very sunny out, but with a nice cool breeze so that I don't feel too hot. I sipped my extra-sweet coffee from my extra-silly mug and just sat on the cold patio stones, breathing in the air, listening to the planes and trucks and cars, watching the local wildlife, and occasionally hugging my miracle of a hairy daughter, my Nimue. (I hate using the word 'miracle', but if you think about all the shit she's been though, it's kind of apt.)

On days like this I can really feel what my Zen practise is supposed to mean. Instead of worrying about being bored outside without a book or something, I just... watched. Like a nature voyeur, I took in everything, experienced everything, and let my mind kind of go sideways with it. And so did Nim. She occasionally chased after some rodents and barked at some asshole who whistled at her though the fence, but for the most part she just lay in the cool grass and sniffed the air. I learn a lot about Zen from Nim.

It's the most peaceful I've felt in a long time, especially since last night I broke down and sobbed in Terry's arms over the apothecary in my dosette. Balance and all that, I suppose.

So, if you are able, please go outside and breathe in the air, and count the blessings you have around you. It's obvious why I don't need to go into detail about the importance of doing so.

(By the way, the silly mug was a birthday present from my mom. It's a bright pink large mug, and on one side it says 'Fabulous is an Attitude' and on the other, 'We can't all be a Princess; someone has to clap as I go by'. Mom had no idea that the mug had the latter saying on it - she just bought it for the former, which made us both laugh harder over it. Also, on the handle, it says 'You go girl'. It's like a 90s flashback!)


Apr. 4th, 2013 06:33 pm
yukinoomoni: (Eh?)
I am 29 tomorrow.

yukinoomoni: (Grin)
So, I recognise my penchant for breaking promises when it comes to updating the mundane-ity that is my life, but at least it's less about laziness and apathy and all about CONSUMING TACTICS VIDEO GAMES. If you could guess which one I mean by the subject header alone, you are awesome to me and I demand we discuss further, since you are at least as far as I am. If you aren't, then I will tell you that I am hopelessly addicted to Fire Emblem: Awakening.

I know, I know - not only do I usually hate tactics games, but I also suck at them. But the thing is, I've always loved the Fire Emblem series, at least from afar. When I had to take care of a dear friend of mine after a brutal car accident, she played the GBA version non-stop, and only stopped when one of her characters died and the battle was lost.

That's why I've never played any of the games before this one: I fucking hate perma-death. It's mean, and unfair! Why can't they just pass out?!! Well, apparently the creators of the series heard me, because this version has two modes: Classic, which is hard and full of evil, and Casual, which is wussy and perfect for me.

And I excel at wussy games! So I'm pretty damned far in the game. And I was so shocked when I found out that the characters could get together (though BOO ON NO GAY RELATIONSHIPS!!! Though yes, later I understood why, BUT STILL, BOO~), and I didn't even know it could happen until suddenly Chrom was married and I was like, SHIT OOPS, but also, AWWWW, because he marries someone who is awesome and, as it turns out, ADDS DELICIOUS HIDDEN DEPTH AND ADDITIONAL EMOTIONAL CUTSCENES. (Yes I will tell you who in the comments, because I don't want to spoil anyone.)

And Terry is playing too! But because I hog the DS, I play more than him, so I have to sit on a mountain of spoilers until he catches up. And, by the way? The game is perfect for pain spikes, because I can sit there resting, thinking it's only been a half-hour, and suddenly three hours are gone and I need to pee. Awesome.

I ALSO LOVE SOULLESS BY GAIL CARRIGER. If you love Victorian supernatural minute-steampunk romance, YOU WILL FOREVER LOVE SOULLESS. I love Alexia. And Conall. AND EVERYONE.

So yeah. I've been OCCUPIED. If anyone else is playing Fire Emblem/reading Soulless, TALK TO ME HERE. I WANT TO SHARE.


Jan. 8th, 2013 11:25 am
yukinoomoni: (Eh?)
I mean well, I really do. It's just, I always find an excuse not to go online, as opposed to normal people, who find excuses TO GO online. Why do I make no sense?

Also, it doesn't help that I can't find my camera's cable. Without it, I haven't been able to upload all of the photos from Crimmas. Argh!

I probably should update for real, right? Even without the pics? Let everyone know how 2013 has been so far for me?

Let me know if you care. I don't usually do that, I know. But I don't want to babble and no one not care. That's all.


Jan. 2nd, 2013 09:08 am
yukinoomoni: (Asami & Korra (wtf?))
Looks like LJ is suffering from stupid, again. Because of this, I won't be able to get updated on everyone's pages over there. I'll start over here on DW, and hopefully when the problems get fixed, I'll be able to hop over and finish up. Sorry! I suck.


Jan. 1st, 2013 03:59 pm
yukinoomoni: (Buh?)
Not dead.

Still here.

There will be a holiday post coming, complete with pictures and a silly video.

I have ~*~PLANS~*~ for 2013.

I will go into detail tomorrow =D

How was it all for all of you? (I will be able to catch up tomorrow.)

yukinoomoni: (Buh?)
I'm sorry I haven't updated in a week or more! I tried to go online the other day and my netbook gave me the finger. RUDE. So I gave up for the rest of the week. How lazy.

What did I miss?


Dec. 13th, 2012 12:06 pm
yukinoomoni: (Korra and Naga (Pensive))
Still like Korra.

And yeah, I even was able to forgive Mako a little bit.



Dec. 12th, 2012 01:56 pm
yukinoomoni: (Buh?)
Not dead. Just struggling through a really long bout of pain that hasn't gone away.

What did I miss?

Anything you want to know from me?

About LJ

Nov. 27th, 2012 07:36 pm
yukinoomoni: (Buh?)
It looks as if those of us who would rather keep our current friends' page layouts the way they are have the option of doing so. Whether this is permanent or not, I plan on researching. However, this does make me forgive them a little bit, and therefore will continue to read said friends' page.

However, I do not plan on spending any money on them any time soon. I feel no need to at the moment.

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