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Mar. 5th, 2016 05:49 pm
yukinoomoni: Rage enrages me. (NOOOOOO)
So....

....

Anyone else obsessed with Undertale? Because if you are, I have stuff you can read.

Also, hi. I'm gonna be using this more often, now. I miss people.

Update me!!!!!!!!

Yeeeeah

Apr. 8th, 2014 08:33 pm
yukinoomoni: Rage enrages me. (NOOOOOO)
So... I turned 30 on Saturday.

It's not as bad as it sounds. I had a wonderful time out to dinner with my family, and was glad that both of my older sisters could make it.

It just feels weird. I'm 30. But sometimes I feel either 60 or 15. It makes little sense. I certainly don't feel as if I've earned being 30. I haven't had any successes worth being proud of at the moment. My life is, at best, half over now.

All I can do is start to get serious about getting published. I really want to get something out there, anything, other than fanfiction that nobody reads much of and is never taken seriously ANYWAY. But I'm deeply afraid of rejection that will definitely come with trying to get published, and I lack the type of ego that can easily bounce back following rejection after rejection. And yet, if I write nothing, send nothing, nothing will happen. At least a stack of rejection letters shows that I at least tried.

Right?

I guess I should fully update, but save deep thoughts and fluctuating health of myself and my pets, I've got nothing.

I know I've missed a lot while I've been busy pissing away my time on Twitter and YouTube. Tell me what I've missed here, while I try to catch up on my own friends list.

Duuuuurp.
yukinoomoni: (Eh?)
So, I know I promised two posts containing two separate holidays, but despite remembering to bring my camera and use it, I forgot the cable at my mom's - and I'm at Terry's house for the next week. Whoops.

I plan to grab it on Monday, when I go see my mom on my way back to Terry's on my meds run. It's very possible that this means the posts will be up by Monday or Tuesday.

I SWEAR!!

(Also, for those of you on LiveJournal, I managed to update my settings from here and DW. All my posts have been cross-posted, but to sum: I won't be on LJ anymore, unless you link me to it. I've lost interest, at the moment, with it. I like DW better. So I'll be updating primarily on DW, and only reading entries from DW. I will always crosspost, but don't forget: I'm not reading LJ anymore. If you wish to link me to something there, do so, but otherwise just assume I know nothing about what goes on there, because I don't know, and I really am not sure if I want to.)

Derp

Dec. 24th, 2013 12:06 pm
yukinoomoni: (Buh?)
You know what I just realised? That I never made a holiday post last year, despite havin many pictures.

Well! This year simply means I have to post this year AND last year! Mwaha!

So, yes. Expect it.
yukinoomoni: (Morgan)
I just wanted to post a quick update for everyone to let you know that despite a great deal of trying, my loved ones and myself managed to avoid any major damage from the really pretty but equally terrifying ice storm. There are a ton of broken trees and a few busted cars, but only my second oldest sister has lost power, and she's living in the epicertre of the damage.

So, I'm okay. Please post here to tell me that you are all okay, too!
yukinoomoni: (Default)
Thanks to my Mom, I'm posting this entry using my new (her old) smart phone. I want to briefly address my last entry, as well as brief you on my decisions about my online footprint.

I've actually become stupidly active on Twitter, although I refuse to engage in anything fandom related save the few random things. I'm not caught up on Korra - in fact, I've only seen the premiere and a few trailers. Please, don't say too much to me. Though I know spoilers are inevitable, I'm trying to avoid them, mostly so as not to get caught up in annoying speculations, but also because I think I would want to watch it in one or two sittings. The waiting is the worst, is it not?

Like I said, I will barely be here on DW and definately not on LJ. Now that mu DW is fixed, my only contribution to LJ is the reposting from DW. Sorry, but the Russian anti-gay stuff pisses me off, and I do not doubt that eventually LJ will become one giant censor bar shaped like Fred the Goat.

If you want more daily contact with me, you can bug me on Twitter @yukinoomoni . I am on there all the time. Bug me. Do it.

So I guess while I still am rather more disconnected than ever, you can still find me somehow.

Or something, I dunno.

No

Sep. 24th, 2013 05:37 pm
yukinoomoni: Rage enrages me. (NOOOOOO)
I am in a hideous mood, and DreamWidth insisting that I do not exist is only making it worse, so once again I am only posting here and not there, and will back the entries up when I find a way.

Honestly, I'm starting to hate the internet. I hate what it does to people. I hate the power it gives over others. I hate that there is absolutely nothing sacred, safe, or private about it (hence why I won't even bother locking this post).

I am grateful for the wonderful friends I have met through the internet, but am also very damaged by those whom I shouldn't have trusted. I love that I am usually able to find wonderful people to talk to about things I love and thought I was the only one who loved them, but I also loathe fandom's horrid ability to suck the fun and magic out of everything I adore.

The internet has allowed me to post writings that would have probably remained in duotangs stuck in my closet, and these writings have brought me closer to more people. It has also alienated me from people, as of course only weirdos write fanfic, right? So I can't even brag about it to "normal" people, despite being extremely proud of that which I wrote.

If anything, my lukewarm success with fanfic has given me hubris as to just how good or bad my writing actually is. I soar high one moment, then get shot down the next. And any time I think about writing the stories that are deep in my heart, I cringe and cringe, because of course it's bad, cliched, overdone, and seen before. EVERYTHING has been seen before, in this highly published society. Anything I write, however good or bad, would be lost in the pool of those who already beat me to it. So why bother?

And the death of Kristen was like the last straw. I had no idea how much I had missed her and wished I was a better friend to her until she died, and I never even met her. All of you, whom I love so much, could flicker just like her, and then what? It's selfish, but I hate having my heart broken.

I barely have friends. I can count the number of friends I have outside of the internet on one hand (without even bothering with my thumb), so really my only social net is full of you - people who have thought me interesting enough to read my words on a screen. I trust you all with more than I trust my family, and I haven't met you. And yet those few friends I know I can barely trust.

How did my life get so backward? Am I the only one?

I'm not really going away off the internet. I just... I obviously am on it so rarely that nobody really would note a difference. I've given up being a "presence" on the internet. Why bother? That is everyone.

So I guess what I'm trying to say is... don't expect much of anything from me anymore. I'm just... probably to vanish quietly, if that's what I decide to do.

Comments are disabled because I know I won't see the comments until too late for replying anyway. If you really need to get in touch, I usually check Twitter more often than not, because I use it to post nonsense. But then, even that will probably die out, too.

(Funnily enough, as I was typing this, I got blocked out of DW AGAIN. This is after a week of changing my password FOUR TIMES and being locked out. FUCK YOU.)
yukinoomoni: (Lucina Unmasked)
Hello.

It's been quite a long time, hasn't it? How are you all? What's new? What have I missed? I hope nothing bad.

Read more... )

So, to sum up, I really am still here and around. Just not online. And it was due to fear and loss and both. And I will strive to come online once a week, if just to update my writing (which has been really awesome).

Also, I humble request detailed comments about your own goings-on since I was online last. Even a sentence is okay. I just want to make sure you are all okay, and I think it would take WAY too long to try to read that far back (if I can).

A detailed post following this one will be locked, as it goes into details about personal stuff. So if I have not provided an acceptable explanation, you can probably figure it out from it (maybe). If you are reading this as a public post but would like to know more, just comment here and I will explain as much as I feel comfortable doing so in public. Otherwise, PM me.

Once again, sorry.

And, hello.

Yo

Dec. 12th, 2012 01:56 pm
yukinoomoni: (Buh?)
Not dead. Just struggling through a really long bout of pain that hasn't gone away.

What did I miss?

Anything you want to know from me?

Shit

Nov. 27th, 2012 07:13 pm
yukinoomoni: (Buh?)
Sorry, I'm not dead. Obviously. I've just been sick and haven't been in the mood for the internet of any kind. Now that I'm on the computer to sift through one of my original stories, I figured it wouldn't hurt to boot up the internet and ensure everyone that I am not dead.

So, here is your reassurance.

I am not dead.

Seriously, there is nothing else to be said. Sorry!

(Posting this public in case there was mass alarm, lol like anyone cares.)

As Usual

May. 1st, 2012 09:13 pm
yukinoomoni: (Default)
Whenever I'm upset or cranky or having one of those days in which my skin feels too gross to be mine, I end up getting rid of my default icon because I'm having an identity crisis or something.

So as usual, I appeal to you, my friends. Help me out with this. Need default.

I mean, only if you want to. No biggie.

FINALLY

Sep. 9th, 2010 02:02 pm
yukinoomoni: (I'M FUCKING BLIND)
I'VE TAGGED MY WHOLE GODDAMNED JOURNAL!!!

I forgot a tag for Harry Potter and Gilmore Girls, but damned if I'm going over this sludge pit of a journal again. Fuck.
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