I don't get it

[yukinoomoni]

I don't get why people are making me feel guilty over this friends cut I made. I didn't deny one bit that it was selfish, but instead of protesting, they're making me feel like shit. A simple "do not cut" would have sufficed.

The simple fact of the matter is that making me feel worse doesn't help. In fact, it makes me feel alienated and isolated, and it makes me just want to delete this fucking thing altogether.

The one thing that everyone focused on was the fact that people got cut. If you don't want to be cut, say something, but don't make me feel like a pile of shit for having the feelings I do. I'm sure you would feel the same way in my place.

EDIT: And yet, I'm such a stupid idiot that no wonder people get upset with me. I honestly do not blame anyone for being pissed. I'm such a fucking idiot, I don't blame anyone for not wanting a thing to do with me. So don't worry. No matter what was said, I'm far, far worse than that, and it's all my fault anyways.

Bottom line: My problem is many things. I'm a drama whore. I'm a perpetual victim, and I'm a coward. This means the following:

I let people take advantage of me, I throw up a huge stink about it, and then I run away from it all. That's what I am.

Comments

[secondlina.livejournal.com]

Sorry for the message, I didn't want to make you feel shitty. I was just taken aback really. And as mentioned before - I like having closure on the why something is happening. I guess the message thing kinda makes me a jerk... Heh... Sorry again.

[yukinoomoni.livejournal.com]

I was upset about the first one, but the second one really made me pause and think about what the hell I was doing.

I'm just the type of person who not only panicks, but tends to cause a mess when I'm panicking. I'm blind to what's going on around me, and I become the most inconsiderate person in the world.

So now I'm just confused. And it's my fault. So now I feel stupid, too.

Gah. Oh well, my fault, not yours.