I'm going to keep saying it until you accept it. Terry is only happy because he thinks you're feeling better. So feel better. Feel better for him, and for me. You're not going to feel better by giving up on yourself.
Fuck, I don't care what you have to tell yourself. I don't care what you think about it. I just want you to do what makes you happy, and for you to be healthy. Please tell me you'll do your best, please tell me you'll stay safe, please tell me you'll hold on. Please tell me you'll get help, real help, even if you have a psychiatrist visit you at home if that's what Terry wants, because it sounds to me more like he doesn't want to be without you.
If there is one thing I have learned in my short, yet impossibly long time on this planet, is that you can't stop asking for help. If you stop, the need for help doesn't go away. It just drags things out, making them tenser and tenser until they snap. And then they'll ask you, why didn't you prevent this, why didn't you say something? Because no one wants to see you hurt. So please, keep trying, keep asking. Please.
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Date: 2019-01-07 03:31 am (UTC)Fuck, I don't care what you have to tell yourself. I don't care what you think about it. I just want you to do what makes you happy, and for you to be healthy. Please tell me you'll do your best, please tell me you'll stay safe, please tell me you'll hold on. Please tell me you'll get help, real help, even if you have a psychiatrist visit you at home if that's what Terry wants, because it sounds to me more like he doesn't want to be without you.
If there is one thing I have learned in my short, yet impossibly long time on this planet, is that you can't stop asking for help. If you stop, the need for help doesn't go away. It just drags things out, making them tenser and tenser until they snap. And then they'll ask you, why didn't you prevent this, why didn't you say something? Because no one wants to see you hurt. So please, keep trying, keep asking. Please.