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So... I turned 30 on Saturday.

It's not as bad as it sounds. I had a wonderful time out to dinner with my family, and was glad that both of my older sisters could make it.

It just feels weird. I'm 30. But sometimes I feel either 60 or 15. It makes little sense. I certainly don't feel as if I've earned being 30. I haven't had any successes worth being proud of at the moment. My life is, at best, half over now.

All I can do is start to get serious about getting published. I really want to get something out there, anything, other than fanfiction that nobody reads much of and is never taken seriously ANYWAY. But I'm deeply afraid of rejection that will definitely come with trying to get published, and I lack the type of ego that can easily bounce back following rejection after rejection. And yet, if I write nothing, send nothing, nothing will happen. At least a stack of rejection letters shows that I at least tried.

Right?

I guess I should fully update, but save deep thoughts and fluctuating health of myself and my pets, I've got nothing.

I know I've missed a lot while I've been busy pissing away my time on Twitter and YouTube. Tell me what I've missed here, while I try to catch up on my own friends list.

Duuuuurp.

Current Mood: anxious
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Some updates:

-I'm on Twitter like a fiend, but will still update here when I can and have something long to say.
-Health is kinda bleh. Tapering my pain meds, so ouch.
-Almost everyone in my friends/family circle are doing well.
-Worried about those who aren't doing well.
-Trying to make an actual difference instead of posing like someone who does.
-I wrote two fanfics this month and plan on writing more. Original fiction is also doing rather well, oddly.
-Reading tons of books. Still feel stupid though =D

Nothing else that I can think of. Did I leave something out?

Current Mood: depressed
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Let's hope this year doesn't suck!

Current Mood: tired
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Thanks to my Mom, I'm posting this entry using my new (her old) smart phone. I want to briefly address my last entry, as well as brief you on my decisions about my online footprint.

I've actually become stupidly active on Twitter, although I refuse to engage in anything fandom related save the few random things. I'm not caught up on Korra - in fact, I've only seen the premiere and a few trailers. Please, don't say too much to me. Though I know spoilers are inevitable, I'm trying to avoid them, mostly so as not to get caught up in annoying speculations, but also because I think I would want to watch it in one or two sittings. The waiting is the worst, is it not?

Like I said, I will barely be here on DW and definately not on LJ. Now that mu DW is fixed, my only contribution to LJ is the reposting from DW. Sorry, but the Russian anti-gay stuff pisses me off, and I do not doubt that eventually LJ will become one giant censor bar shaped like Fred the Goat.

If you want more daily contact with me, you can bug me on Twitter @yukinoomoni . I am on there all the time. Bug me. Do it.

So I guess while I still am rather more disconnected than ever, you can still find me somehow.

Or something, I dunno.

Current Mood: corn syrup pop is gross
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Hey everyone. Sorry for the silence again! I actually was working on the aforementioned project, as well as flying all over the GTA for doctors (not literally, but I was tired enough to make it seem like it after). I'm still working on the project - especially since I overestimated my own readership and popularity and was unable to get enough responses in order to get a good sample. It's nobody's fault but mine =3.

So the project will go on with what I have, but at half of the original plan: 5 instead of 10.

Additionally, my vanishing was accidental as well as incidental. Things didn't seem aligned for me over this time gone, so, yeah. Not going into details.

But, who cares?! Today is September 17th! Eleven years have come and gone, and that guy, what's his name, Terry or something, is still around. What's his deal? One would think we're in love or something. Still. And grossly. Still.

Bah! This post sucks. Sorry.

Fandom:
-I saw Nostalgia Critic's review of The Last Airbender. It was perfect. Mostly. But well worth a watch or five.
-Terry and I saw the second season of Korra begin on the weekend. Many squees and intrigue! No spoilers, here, tho!
-I will be writing fanfic VERY SOON, in THREE fandoms: ATLA, ATLOK, and Shadow Raiders (!).

Also, who keeps recommending my old fanfics? Seriously. They all lack sense now - especially since Aang dies at a different age (52) than previously thought (68). Aaaaargh!

Also, please forgive me for not checking on my friends list any further than a few days. Please let me know if I have missed something.

Okay. Post over.... Now.

Current Mood: crazy

Hello everyone!

Over the next couple of days, I will be posting several polls and questions in order to research some stuff for a project I'm working on. Once the questions progress, it will be obvious what my project is, but for now try to answer as honestly as possible, not in the way you think I want you to answer. The polls and the comments will be given an anonymous option, in case you want that.

So, on to the first round! And here is the topic:

QUESTIONS, ROUND ONE: YOUR TOP TEN FAVOURITE FAIRY TALES OF ALL TIME

In the comments below, please list, in order of favourite (the first being the best and the last being the least favourite), the first ten fairy tales that you find your favourites. There is no cultural boundaries, country or continental boundaries. All I ask is, if the tale did not originate in English and I have not heard of it, please provide a link.

It also doesn't matter how obscure or popular the tale is - YOU JUST HAVE TO LIKE IT. If you cannot think of ten, then round it down to five. Any less than five, I can't use.

Details of this project I wish to keep semi-secret for now. A few already know what this is, but for the sake of objective results, keep it shushed!

So, no polls this round. Just lists, in the comments, of (preferably) ten, but five is also... acceptable.

I plan on keeping this venue open for a week, so take your time thinking it all out and commenting. It's really important!

Current Mood: creative
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Hello.

It's been quite a long time, hasn't it? How are you all? What's new? What have I missed? I hope nothing bad.

( Read more... )

So, to sum up, I really am still here and around. Just not online. And it was due to fear and loss and both. And I will strive to come online once a week, if just to update my writing (which has been really awesome).

Also, I humble request detailed comments about your own goings-on since I was online last. Even a sentence is okay. I just want to make sure you are all okay, and I think it would take WAY too long to try to read that far back (if I can).

A detailed post following this one will be locked, as it goes into details about personal stuff. So if I have not provided an acceptable explanation, you can probably figure it out from it (maybe). If you are reading this as a public post but would like to know more, just comment here and I will explain as much as I feel comfortable doing so in public. Otherwise, PM me.

Once again, sorry.

And, hello.

Current Mood: itchy
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One of the fun things about being at Terry's house on some days is that I get to watch him clean.

Now, he lives alone, technically (I only live here on the weekends), thus he lives the life of a single guy, more or less. How would you picture a single guy's abode?

Full of wrappers, dirty dishes, laundry piled up, everything smelling weird, and so on.

...

That shit only happens when I come over. I am the single man in this household.

Terry cleans after me like Ryuuji does for Taiga: with no second thoughts and almost an unconscious way of doing so, in a way that doesn't make me feel bad. So when I see him like today, cleaning his place from head to toe, on knees and feet, scrubbing and sweeping and stuff, I dunno...

All I can see is Ryuuji!

So I call him that with legitimacy, and that is how it goes. And so it shall go until he stops being that way.

(He just read this entry and laughed at me, then accused me of thinking it as "cleaning porn". There is no masturbation here! I am just full of admiration for someone who can clean so much all at once and not get upset over it, especially when the mess is mine!)

...he just lit a candle under the sink, because the garbage smells?

RYUUJI.

Current Mood: amused
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Not dead.

Still here.

There will be a holiday post coming, complete with pictures and a silly video.

I have ~*~PLANS~*~ for 2013.

I will go into detail tomorrow =D

How was it all for all of you? (I will be able to catch up tomorrow.)

Sorry!

Current Mood: crazy
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I'm sorry I haven't updated in a week or more! I tried to go online the other day and my netbook gave me the finger. RUDE. So I gave up for the rest of the week. How lazy.

What did I miss?

Current Mood: embarrassed
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Not dead. Just struggling through a really long bout of pain that hasn't gone away.

What did I miss?

Anything you want to know from me?

Current Mood: sore
Crossposts: http://yukinoomoni.livejournal.com/1538318.html

Sorry, I'm not dead. Obviously. I've just been sick and haven't been in the mood for the internet of any kind. Now that I'm on the computer to sift through one of my original stories, I figured it wouldn't hurt to boot up the internet and ensure everyone that I am not dead.

So, here is your reassurance.

I am not dead.

Seriously, there is nothing else to be said. Sorry!

(Posting this public in case there was mass alarm, lol like anyone cares.)

Current Mood: sore
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So, as it turns out, I don't have writer's block - in one sense, only. In all other senses, I do.

When it comes to fanfiction, of all kinds, in all fandoms, I'm blocked. A big giant writing-hating elephant sits on my hand and arm whenever I strive to write fanfic.

But, for whatever reason, that elephant vanishes when I start to write original fiction - in particular, the one series that I've been having trouble getting down into words for over a decade. Instead, my usual muse for that series, instead of ignoring me or painting her nails while I cry in dismay, is sitting on my head and making sure I write. Otherwise, I feel confused and like I'm wasting time.

Another good reason why the fanfic isn't churning out is because I've been so distracted by Tales of the Abyss. That game is so good. I haven't felt this emotionally invested in a game since I first played the Lunar duet in my teens. I am almost at the end (DON'T SPOIL ME!!)! Luke is probably the only other male character - right next to Zuko - that I've actually felt a bond to and actually cared about. And Tear - I LOVE TEAR! I would kill for Tear icons. I just wish I knew where to find them!!

I'm glad I'm writing, actually. I missed it. I missed only having myself to answer for, as I'm the one that is the creator of the whole thing. I don't need to fact-check or ensure that I'm keeping in character, because I already know these characters so well that there's no way I ever could mis-write them. They're a part of me.

So, to sum it up, I'm sorry for my constant fanfic fail. I really thought creating a prompt post would help get the creativity exploding, but instead I just ignore it. I promise, once I get the drive to, I will get to those prompts!

How are all of you?

Current Mood: embarrassed
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What is with the following trends that I keep seeing or hearing? They make no sense!

-"For God Sakes" or "For God's sakes." It's actually "For God's sake," and that is all.
-"Could care less." That's...so not right. It's "Couldn't care less." Saying it means that you care so little that caring any less is impossible!
-"Don't know nothing." "I won't tell nothing." "I dunno nobody." Double negatives make me crazy! And they're everywhere!
-"My Big Fat __ ____", which is taken from the movie "My Big Fat Greek Wedding." People use it everywhere; there was even a reality show called "My Big Fat Gypsy Wedding!" isn't that a copyright issue?!
-"That's sick!" Uhm, doesn't sick usually mean it's something bad? It's like when I was young, and people used "wicked", only I seriously think "sick" is ten times worse.

There's more, but I forget. I'll add to the list when I remember.

Current Mood: weird
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Whenever I'm upset or cranky or having one of those days in which my skin feels too gross to be mine, I end up getting rid of my default icon because I'm having an identity crisis or something.

So as usual, I appeal to you, my friends. Help me out with this. Need default.

I mean, only if you want to. No biggie.

Current Mood: blah
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Hey, why didn't any of you say anything about my wondering about icons for my journal? Do I really talk about icons that much?

Come to think of it, I probably do.

Oh well.

This post is pointless.

Current Mood: annoying
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Having trouble deciding on a default (again). I really want one that says something about me, that people can easily identify me by it, and when they see the image, they think of me automatically. But I also want something somewhat emotionless, or just neutral, you know?

The few I've narrowed it down to are here:

From the fairytale "East of the Sun, West of the Moon." I really like the idea of a girl being the hero and rescuing the prince, and thought that the girl (she has no name) is a really brave and awesome character.

Photo of me.

A greyscale drawing of one of my characters named Serrova Nune. I used to write a weekly serial about her, but it died after a few months due to no muse. I still like the character, though.

A pen-drawn pic of myself with a green border.

A full-colour pic done in MS paint of myself.

A close-up of a picture of one of my characters, Anya, standing under an umbrella in the rain and just thinking.

What do you think? Here, I'll make a poll to make it easier or whatever.
[Poll #1789864]

EDIT: I also found these, so if you like these, just comment:
A/

Current Mood: curious

Photo of me.

A greyscale drawing of one of my characters named Serrova Nune. I used to write a weekly serial about her, but it died after a few months due to no muse. I still like the character, though.