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yukinoomoniAlso, I've noticed that, due to the internet going down at work, I've been using LJ less and less. I also found that, while I enjoy reading my LJ, I don't really care as much. No one comments much here, and while that sounds like bitching, it's not. I know you all have lives. But at the same time, I wonder if I even have an audience, or if I'm writing here more for other people rather than myself.
It's really something to think about, anyway. Because of my sensitivity paired with LJ, I've caused myself alot of pain and angst over bullshit. So I wonder, why am I writing here?
I got an LJ, ultimately, for Terry. He was the one who gave me a code, and we used LJ to write to eachother and about eachother. As time progressed, it graduated to something to angst in, to write about daily occurances, and also for writing and posting pure crap.
But now?
I've been having this feeling lately that electronics will be going down. I don't know why, so I've been trying to limit my usage as much as possible. That being said, I don't to lose contact with people that I care about. I remember pushing so many people to get LJ to communicate with me, only to find those journals abandoned or unadded.
So what was the point?
I suppose I'll keep writing. I always have alot to say. And I really should be using this for myself over others, but I do like knowing that people are reading about me, learning about me, and knowing that I'm okay.
Bu-lah. Whatever. You all know that once I get the internet back at work I'll be back to posting like a retard every day. But it's still interesting to think about, don't you think?
It's really something to think about, anyway. Because of my sensitivity paired with LJ, I've caused myself alot of pain and angst over bullshit. So I wonder, why am I writing here?
I got an LJ, ultimately, for Terry. He was the one who gave me a code, and we used LJ to write to eachother and about eachother. As time progressed, it graduated to something to angst in, to write about daily occurances, and also for writing and posting pure crap.
But now?
I've been having this feeling lately that electronics will be going down. I don't know why, so I've been trying to limit my usage as much as possible. That being said, I don't to lose contact with people that I care about. I remember pushing so many people to get LJ to communicate with me, only to find those journals abandoned or unadded.
So what was the point?
I suppose I'll keep writing. I always have alot to say. And I really should be using this for myself over others, but I do like knowing that people are reading about me, learning about me, and knowing that I'm okay.
Bu-lah. Whatever. You all know that once I get the internet back at work I'll be back to posting like a retard every day. But it's still interesting to think about, don't you think?
