I don't get it
Apr. 7th, 2009 04:07 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
yukinoomoniI don't get why people are making me feel guilty over this friends cut I made. I didn't deny one bit that it was selfish, but instead of protesting, they're making me feel like shit. A simple "do not cut" would have sufficed.
The simple fact of the matter is that making me feel worse doesn't help. In fact, it makes me feel alienated and isolated, and it makes me just want to delete this fucking thing altogether.
The one thing that everyone focused on was the fact that people got cut. If you don't want to be cut, say something, but don't make me feel like a pile of shit for having the feelings I do. I'm sure you would feel the same way in my place.
EDIT: And yet, I'm such a stupid idiot that no wonder people get upset with me. I honestly do not blame anyone for being pissed. I'm such a fucking idiot, I don't blame anyone for not wanting a thing to do with me. So don't worry. No matter what was said, I'm far, far worse than that, and it's all my fault anyways.
Bottom line: My problem is many things. I'm a drama whore. I'm a perpetual victim, and I'm a coward. This means the following:
I let people take advantage of me, I throw up a huge stink about it, and then I run away from it all. That's what I am.
The simple fact of the matter is that making me feel worse doesn't help. In fact, it makes me feel alienated and isolated, and it makes me just want to delete this fucking thing altogether.
The one thing that everyone focused on was the fact that people got cut. If you don't want to be cut, say something, but don't make me feel like a pile of shit for having the feelings I do. I'm sure you would feel the same way in my place.
EDIT: And yet, I'm such a stupid idiot that no wonder people get upset with me. I honestly do not blame anyone for being pissed. I'm such a fucking idiot, I don't blame anyone for not wanting a thing to do with me. So don't worry. No matter what was said, I'm far, far worse than that, and it's all my fault anyways.
Bottom line: My problem is many things. I'm a drama whore. I'm a perpetual victim, and I'm a coward. This means the following:
I let people take advantage of me, I throw up a huge stink about it, and then I run away from it all. That's what I am.
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Date: 2009-04-07 10:14 pm (UTC)Either there wasn't much going on, or there was and you just need space from whatever was happening. If something completely wrong has happened, let the finger-pointing commence, but if nothing evil happened, it's better to reflect on one's own actions before looking for verbal ammunition.
The verb, "fume" doesn't suggest any kind of effective action. It's generally what people resort to when they can't overturn what has been said.
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Date: 2009-04-08 03:55 am (UTC)Also, you shouldn't find minor flaws in yourself and try to mold them into defining traits. If this keeps going, soon you'll imagine that you're growing horns and a goatee, and that bizarre mental image will haunt you forever.
Tara, you're a lot more awesome than you think you are. If other people want to accuse you of bad stuff as much as you're accusing you of bad stuff, then they're just being sourpusses. Don't let them drag your mood down to theirs. If you do that, the goatee will have won.