Chaotic Insanity

Ever since I've started piano lessons, every time I have to go, it's been raining.

Tonight will be no exception.

WTF?

EDIT: It actually didn't rain at all. WEIRD!!

I'm getting better at the piano. I still struggle with my left hand and not looking at the keyboard instead of the music, but I'm getting better, I'd like to think.

I was laughing so hard. There was a song in my book about a robot, in order to introduce sharps, and it sounded so silly and stupid and retarded that I was laughing so hard I almost cried. I played it for my mother, but the novelty was lost on her.

Remind me to play it for you, caster13!!

So yeah. Piano is hard, but is fun. The end.

My first lesson was last night and while I'm trying to keep an open mind, it sort of sucked.

For starters, while it's more forgivable than the rest, they didn't order me the right workbook, so I paid for something invisible. The book that was ordered for me was Level 2, and it was I that noticed the error. Luckily, there was another adult student there, so I got a photcopy of the first twelve pages, but I have been registered for two weeks, so that was kinda ridiculous.

And my teacher has no damned sense of humour. She's stiff, boring, and prone to yawning while I'm trying to learn. She talks down to me like I'm six, and while I understand getting into autopilot after teaching kids for a while, it never ceased. From start to finish, in between yawning and looking at her watch, I was treated like a retard. Plus, which I know is not unique to her, I had to sing. Gah.

It's hard. I want to counter it and so that I don't waste lessons see if I can get a new teacher. But at the same time, I feel bad for giving up on this teacher after one lesson. But at the same time, how can a person be so disrespectful? It's tricky.

So no, I didn't have a good time, really. I'm trying to be optimistic about it, but I'm pretty disappointed. But, luckily, it's the first lesson, so hopefully it can only go up from here.

PS. Nimue came home a little stoned and thus a little scared and upset, but near the end of the night she was acting sluggish but normal. This morning, she's slow but as normal as I've seen her post-op. I'm so pleased =3.

Good: Piano lessons start on Thursday.

Bad: I have to take the bus there.

Good: I got my SIN card.

Bad: Nimue's surgery to see if she does have cancer is also on Thursday.

Good: mistress_gwen is my co-worker now.

Bad: I'm still paranoid about everything.

Conclusion: I suck, but at least you can depend on that being eternal.

I was just on the radio!

I requested some recorder pieces to listen to on the classical station, and they followed through!!

God, I sound stupid.

But, eeeeeeee! Recorder!

EDIT: Oh my god. When it finished, my name was mentioned like 20 times. I mentioned in my request that I was learning to play the recorder, and the announcer was like, "If you get really good, call us. Maybe we can set you up in our concert lobby." LMFAO.

I finally got a govenment cheque today. Finally!

I'm going in to confirm my piano lessons and set up a schedule!

That's it, that's all I've got. Besides feeling shitty and all, I suppose.

I'm still alive. I figured out my Neo and am writing feverishly.

I had a sobby revealation today, one that does not need to be explained as of yet. Once I figure it all out, perhaps then I'll share it. Maybe not.

I've been unhappy lately, which is probably why my entries are stupid and sparse. I just don't feel like getting into it, because it's all been said and done before, you know? And besides, while I'm sure a handfull of you do care, why bother you with shit when you all have your own?

Seriously, though. I'm fine. I just don't feel like whining right now when I'm doing nothing about it. Instead, I'll just find out how to fix it.

I suppose, bottom line, is that it's hard when you realise that your existance is completely obselete, if not now, then later. I just want what I do for 7 or 8 hours a day to MEAN something...that's all.

Stupid Neo is hard to figure out! It says it can transfer files from comp to Neo, BUT IT LIES. And then it goes into detail about HOW TO MAKE LESSON PLANS. WTF?!

I bought Piano for Dummies. It was on sale. Will I use it? Time will tell.

And while I look nothing like her and probably am nothing like her, I'm using Kyoko bases because I've always like her and find her a very underappreciated heroine.

That's all I've got.

Terry and I had another jam session today. I made an ass of myself It was fun!

I think I DO want to learn the piano, but it's so hard ;.;.

Still writing. Wooo.

I've spent so much money on my flute and stuff, and I keep worrying that I'm wasting money. but Terry pointed out that hobbies are like that. That's what makes them hobbies.

I've got nothing else o.O;.

A couple of random things.

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