Chaotic Insanity

Hey Troll.

Hey, you Troll.

You know who you are.

The little fucker that trolled my good friend secondlina and made shitty asshole comments about her, the_flowergirl and myself.

You don't like me?

You have a problem with me?

You think I'm a paranoid bitch?

Say it to my face, you little shit.

If you don't have the guts to insult me to my face, that's your problem. BUT DON'T YOU FUCKING DARE DRAG MY FRIENDS INTO IT, YOU LITTLE COCKSUCKING MAGGOTWHORE.

You have a problem? SAY IT RIGHT HERE, TO MY FUCKING FACE.

Otherwise, GET THE FUCK OUT OF THE KITCHEN AND STAY OFF MY FUCKING LAWN.

Okay. So as I'm sure you all could see, I cashed in my two cents about the now-infamous Gabaldon-foot-shooting incident.

I've read through a lot of different forums.

I've viewed it from both sides from different authors of all genres, whether I have read them or not.

And the final verdict is that I haven't changed my mind, at all. I still think fanfiction is harmless unless someone is trying to cash in on your ideas.

I respect that some authors request a fanfiction black-out, and fine - that is the exception. If you don't listen to the creator of your fanfic's source, you're a dick - end of story. If you're a creator that squicks over the thought of fanfic, you have ever right to request that people piss off and don't post their stuff.

But you don't have a right to publicly insult and castigate those who enjoy fanfiction, including reading it, writing it, or contributing to it. Or, correction: You have a right to say whatever you want to say about people who write fanfic, but don't be surprised if thousands of people decide to rip you several new assholes as a result. Free speech and all that.

I reacted in my post out of the anger I was feeling, and I don't regret that. I used strong language to convey how I felt, and that is that. Just like Gabaldon, I used harsh and mean wording to convey my point.

Personally? All this has done is stunt my writing, to be honest. I haven't been able to write anything since reading this whole kerfluffle. Pathetic, but true. I take things way too personally and when something I like gets attacked, I kind of take it...personally...and end up getting a block about it. Oh well.

So yeah. That's my last thought on it.

So, apparently because I write fanfiction, I'm equivalent to a backyard-pot-growing, breaking-and-entering, stalker-porn selling, white child-slaver rapist.

Fuck you, Diana Gabaldon. Fuck. You.

EDIT: This guy has it absolutely right.

( The truth about Indigo Books and Music )

Bottom Line: Indigo doesn't care for loyalty, customer or employee. All they care about is who shouts the loudest, who kisses the most ass, and how much they can get for all of the above.

For those of you who saw it publicly, yes, I protected that last entry.

For those of you who didn't, don't worry about it.

I AM tired of the bullshit. I DO NOT enjoy this kind of thing, especially when I keep thinking it's dead and buried. But posting something like that to public eyes would just make it worse, and who needs that?

I'm so done. I've decided to be an adult about things. It's not my problem if others won't be. I'm tired of being made to look like an asshole, but not fed up enough to make it true, even if it's to defend myself.

Things like this make me realise alot, though. If any of this has made any of you uncomfortable, or you don't want to choose sides, I respect that. You can unfriend me, and there will be no hard feelings. But in saying that, it would be nice to be defended once and a while, especially if I haven't even EARNED such harsh words or treatment.

It's funny, if you think about it. A person claims to be forgiving, and yet that person is completely unable to forgive. Why make that my problem?

Whatever.

It's so fascinating when you discover that your every word, serious or silly, is like fuel and fodder for someone else. To have such power over someone, to have them hang onto your every word, makes me feel strangely arrogant and wanting to say the most retarded shit ever just to see what happens!

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...when I'm mad, I'm kinda funny.

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