Chaotic Insanity

I'VE TAGGED MY WHOLE GODDAMNED JOURNAL!!!

I forgot a tag for Harry Potter and Gilmore Girls, but damned if I'm going over this sludge pit of a journal again. Fuck.

I haven't gone to tai chi in two weeks.

I'm probably really behind now.

I have always had trouble with the whip.

I just tried it for shits and giggles to see if I could do it.

I did it perfectly.

What the fuck.

So you all know how I'm taking waterbending tai chi, right?

Well, I suck. I make it no secret that I suck.

The thing is, I'm okay with sucking. I'm out of shape and fat, so of course I'm going to suck. But I figure, if I keep trying and not give up, I should shape up and not suck eventually.

I started my first lesson at the Tai Chi Academy today, and it turns out that I was orignally taught by a student sifu. Tonight we were taught by the real sifu, and fuck. FUCK. This guy is hardcore. We had to do the very first move over twenty times in order to make sure it was perfect, and it still wasn't quite right!

I don't mind, though; if it means that I get it right eventually, I don't care how many times I have to do it. Apparently I have a problem with force, though. As in, I use too much of it. I can't help it - I'm a very forceful kind of woman. I mean, look at my profession, for fuck's sake.

So yeah. I'm signed up til September. I hope by then I won't suck so hard. Yeah.

Oh, and the anon who sent me the MOST ADORABLE PUPPY VIRTUAL GIFT FOR MY BIRTHDAY?! THANK YOU!

I LEARNED THE WATER WHIP LAST NIGHT.

TRUE STORY.

Tai chi, man. It's NOT a good idea to start giggling in the middle of a lesson, just because you recognise the moves from A Certain Amazing Show.

But, the move is even called "The Whip." How could I not laugh?

Plus, I also learned how to push and pull. Ahahaha! And, surprise, it's even called "push and pull"!

And, durrhurr, I had dreams about being Katara thanks to all of this. GO ME I AM INSANE.